The Reason

   I named this blog in honor of Regina Spektor's song, THE CALL:

   "It started out as a feeling/ which then grew into a hope/ which then turned into a quiet thought/ which then turned into a quiet word. And then that word grew louder and louder 'til it was a battle cry: "I'LL COME  BACK WHEN YOU CALL ME. NO NEED TO SAY GOODBYE!" Just because every thing's changing/ doesn't mean it's never been this way before. All you can do is try to know who your friends are as you head off to the war. Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light. You'll come back when it's over. No need to say goodbye.
   NOW, WE'RE BACK TO THE BEGINNING/ It's just a feeling and no one knows yet/ But just because they can't feel it too/ doesn't mean that you have to forget. Let your memories grow stronger and stronger 'til they're before your eyes. You'll come back when they call you. No need to say goodbye." - Regina Spektor   
  
   Life at the moment is tangled and confusing. It's not going anywhere; nothing is getting accomplished. I'm supposed to never let go of my dreams and push my way to the top. But I don't know where the top is, and I lost my dreams on the path to the place I'm at now. This blog is designated to help me remember who I am and where I was going. I wanted to live a life of passion. But now I'm just barely existing.
    I get myself back on track, but then life alters and I start all over again. This summer my Big Adventure was auditioning for acting school in New York this February and studying abroad in France for my junior year. But the summer didn't go as planned. My cousin died suddenly and my plan was lost.  This weekend I will miss the audition date. It will pass me by.
   There are great journeys ahead, lurking ahead in the fog of Walla Walla. I want to know what they are. I am going to pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light.